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For the first time in over a year, I am currently on a week’s leave from work.

Why? Well, I thought it best to do it now when things are pretty quiet after Easter, as to not put my co-workers in jeopardy while they fill in for me.

What am I planning on doing this week, I hear you ask? At this stage…nothing. I plan on reading, writing, catching up on my favourite TV shows and spending time just breathing…doesn’t that sound spectacular?

After I began my job last year after  month off due to my redundancy, I was refreshed and had no desire for the rest of 2016 to take time off. Of course, there were a few moments where I had wished I could – when things got to be a bit stressful or when my personal wellbeing wasn’t at it’s best – but I carried on.

At the start of this year for about 2.5 months, my life revolved around work. My role as a receptionist in a community college during peak enrolment period really tested my patience and my ability to solve problems quickly and without fuss. It was a demanding time period, yet as I said to a fellow co-worker, I didn’t notice just how busy we were until things started to die down and the pace returned to normal.

I was exhausted. Absolutely spent. Drained from so much customer contact, from answering 100+ phone calls every day for months. Really…over it. Thankfully, my boss noticed my deflation and recommended I plan some time off. Now, I know how lucky I am regarding this – not all bosses will suggest their staff take a week off just to recharge. I saw my opportunity, weighed it against the fact that I hadn’t taken more than a weekend off (and even in some cases, I had worked multiple weekends during that busy period) in over a year and agreed.

Now, here I am. Day 2 of my official days off. Not counting the Easter long weekend, which has already left me refreshed.

I adore this time of the year. April in Australia brings on a cool change, while keeping the sunny days we love. Mornings are brighter, evenings darker earlier and sunsets much more photographic. It’s all so relaxing and cosy.

For Good Friday this year, my family and I packed up our cars and headed to our local lake for some fish and chips by the water. It was such a beautiful, cloudless day looking out onto the water.

I cherish time with my family the older I get as it’s not s regular as it once was. My childhood memories are full of family drives to the lake; piling into the car with our walkmans and Barbie dolls and setting off on an adventure across town. The drive always seemed so long – now we’re there in the blink of an eye. It’s like that with so many things these days in comparison to days gone by. I miss those days immensely.


Easter was relatively quiet. I ventured out of the house Sunday afternoon to see Beauty and the Beast at the cinema with my Mum, sister and Zia (that’s Aunty in Italian if you weren’t aware). As the original Beauty and the Beast cartoon was and is one of my all-time favourite films, I was a bit wary as to how I would enjoy the film, but I was left pleasantly surprised! Highly recommended to those who love Disney, magic, music and romance!

Autumn is all about nature stripping itself of the past as it makes way for new and exciting things. Beautiful things. It can get dark and cold, but it’s all how you look at it. Much the same can be said about our lives and the way we choose to live them.

We can run ourselves down and not do anything to pick back up again, or we can take a break to stop and take the reigns again and prepare whatever is coming next. It’s a time for change, growth and rebirth.

I, for one, can’t wait to see what the rest of Autumn has to offer.

Hoping you all had a spectacular long weekend, regardless of what you celebrated – I would love to hear all about your adventures!

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She is eager to please. A smile permanently plastered upon her face in the presence of others, regardless of how her mind knows differently. Constantly working on overdrive, her thoughts unravel like a piece of old cloth, struggling to cling onto the last row of stitching before the next begins to fall.

She is creative; sees potential in which so many do not. Her ideas are original, yet her smile does not let them pass. Her constant fear of judgement has been with her since childhood and although she won’t admit it out loud, it frustrates her to no end.

She is passive. Rather than speak her truth, she will let hurtful words bury themselves deep within her skin, her soul. She won’t admit this out loud, but she has inherited this trait from her mother.

She finds the most pleasure in being alone. Surrounded by the musical poetry of others, a place she can get lost in stories of others, often relating them to her own experiences.

She knows she can count the number of true friends she has on one hand and it does not bother her one bit. She is also afraid that her true friends will never actually know the real her. The girl she is inside her mind as opposed to the girl they see.

She has never known romance. Although she likes to think she knows about it. She is afraid she may never experience love in the way it should be experienced. In fact, it is probably the most frightening thing which currently clogs her mind and has been for many years.

She craves affection, love, appreciation and acceptance from everyone. She knows life could be so much more than what it is, but she is too afraid to start a new chapter for fear of the unknown.

She wants so much on the inside but expects so little on the outside.

She will be free. 

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The Difference A Year Can Make

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Well, well, well…guess who’s back?!

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Y’know…in case you didn’t get it already.

That’s right ladies and gents, I’m back, I’m blogging and I am better than ever!

A little over a year ago I began this blog as a way to find some routine and normality during what was a chaotic few months. I had been made redundant from my job of 5 years and along with the regular feelings of anxiety and self-doubt that I was already experiencing came a new level of scared and stressed. Fear of the unknown took over my ability to see things in a positive light. But writing posts on this blog managed to calm me and helped me see the broader picture: that Everything Was Going To Be Alright.

Soon enough, I found a new job with amazing people who pushed me to speak up more and challenged me to put myself out there again in a way that I had never really done before. Before long, my confidence grew – I knew what I was capable of and knew that what I had been doing for the past 5 years was just a test for the year ahead. I never realised how stagnant I was in my job and how little growth I had until I started a new chapter, looked back and re-evaluated everything I thought I knew about my life and myself as a person.

Back in October I had a special birthday brunch with my old workmates. It was a beautiful morning and just as we were all saying goodbye to each other, a few of my ex-coworkers remarked on how confident I had become within myself and among others. It wasn’t until that moment that I realised what a blessing it had been to be let go from my job all those months ago. It lead me to a new sense of purpose and a new level of inner peace that I hadn’t felt in many years.

October was 5 months ago and now, here I am. I’m still at the same job, working in a new department with a bunch of incredibly strong, funny and caring women. These women look out for each other – I am yet to see any of them turn on each other during stressful moments (trust me, there have been some stressful moments!) – and they inspire me to also be a better, stronger, more powerful woman.

My goals for 2017 include moving out of my childhood home, purchasing an upgrade to my current car, travel more to my favourite places around Australia (America/Europe/The UK will have to wait for the time being), make more time for my friends…and to continue learning that I cannot change people’s reactions towards others. The only thing I can do is be conscious of my reactions towards others.

I want my writing to reach more of you this year and to find others to talk with about the things I deal with. I want to write more about my own experiences as well as incorporate my love of storytelling and reviewing of entertainment into my posts.

So, you never really know what you’re going to get from me this year. I can only promise that I will try to be truthful with my words – after all, words are all I have for you all.

Looking forward to whatever 2017 brings. If you want to talk some more, visit me over on my Twitter, Instagram or find me on Snapchat (username: melissapisan).

Let’s make 2017 better than we ever imagined!

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Monthly Faves – Monthly Playlist, Harry Styles, Netflix Weather and More

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Tomorrow is October 1st. I know, I can’t believe it either. Where has the year gone?

It’s usually around this time of the year that my wish to live in America presents itself more strongly than the rest of the year. I mean, it’s autumn. Halloween is just a month away. Then it’s Thanksgiving, which I have always loved to be a part of. Then it’s Christmas (only 86 sleeps to go!), which involves snow in many places – something I have yet to experience in general, let alone at Christmas time! One day….I will go and it will be fantastic.

Today has been a very wintery day, although it’s officially spring. It’s been raining and windy for the past 3 days, with forecasts predicting it will be continuing over our long weekend. Perfect Netflix weather, I say. Especially with a new month tomorrow meaning new Netflix additions!

In the spirit of the approaching Halloween season, I’ve been watching Scream Queens season 1 which is hilarious and not really that scary at all. It’s created by Ryan Murphy who created Glee, so if you liked the edgy humor from Glee, you should enjoy Scream Queens! I love the costumes which the Chanels wear as well as the 80s soundtrack. Also, Emma Roberts deserves awards for playing Chanel Oberlin – she is so good!

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Also on my current watchlist as been The Vampire Diaries (Stelena 4eva), UnReal TV and Full House (I know it’s cheesy, but we all need a bit of cheese, don’t you think?). Not to mention numerous Netflix documentaries about space and the universe.

So, we all know Harry Styles is gorgeous, but have you seen his photoshoots for Another Man magazine which came out this week? The man is giving Kendall and Gigi a run for their money.

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So many more pics out there, but you get the idea: he is a model.

Then, last night I randomly woke up at 1am to see other One Direction alumni Niall Horan just released his first solo single called This Town which is absolutely beautiful, simple yet incredibly touching…

I really wish all of the 1D boys all the best with whatever they choose to do during their hiatus, I just adore all of them so much!

Speaking of music, here’s this month’s playlist:

Shawn Mendes released his new album Illuminate last week and it’s very John Mayer/Ed Sheeran-y. But with a Mendes twist. I think Shawn is one of the best young artists out there at the moment and if Illuminate is what we get for a second album, I can’t wait to see how great he’s going to be in years to come!

Another fave of mine for this month has been cross-stitching. Yes, I am a 70 year old woman trapped inside the body of a twentysomething year old woman! I’m working on a cross-stitch design for my Nonna, which I hope to frame and give to her either on her birthday or for a Christmas gift (depending on how quickly I get it done!). I love how relaxing crafting can be after a stressful day at work.

On my food faves list has to be burrito bowls. We had a new health food store open in our town this month and they make the BEST burrito bowls. Just…to die for.

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I’m in love!

 

I’d love to know what have been your favourite things this month!

Let me know in the comments area below.

Until next time,

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6 Months – Moving On & Self Discovery

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6 months. That’s how long it’s been since I started a brand new chapter of my life.

They say that you shouldn’t let your professional life affect your personal life. That work shouldn’t be as important as your relationships/friendships/family. But when you’re suddenly left without a job, you quickly realize just how important having a professional life can be and how it can affect you as a person.

6 months ago, I was made redundant from my job that I had held for the past 5 years. It was always something I was proud of for my age – securing a job which I not only enjoyed doing, but one that I had been able to stay at for 5 years. So many people in my generation seemed content with switching and changing, picking and choosing and trying a bit of everything before finally settling into what they wanted to do. I felt so lucky to have found something I enjoyed doing, doing it well and continuing to do it well for 5 years.

I learned that a lot can change in 5 years for a person. You learn so much about yourself both professionally and personally. But I’ve also learned how much one can learn about themselves in as little as 6 months. How much I can impress myself, looking back on what I have achieved since leaving my job in May, 2016 and how far I have come personally.

You would think that being made redundant would have broken my self-confidence and shattered my belief in myself that I could find another job that I loved just as much as the one I had. 6 months ago, I would have let my anxiety get the better of me and probably would have made myself sick through fear of the unknown.

The truth is, I do fear the unknown. I worry about not only my future, but the future of everyone I love. The difference between who I am now and who I was 6 months ago is that I realize that some things just aren’t up to us to decide. We have to be open to change, to possibility and bend when the wind tries to break us.

I’ve been working in a new job for a wonderful company for the past 4 months. Something I never saw coming, yet when it happened, it just felt right. I knew it was because I kept myself calm and positive, even though the second month of unemployment (which definitely tested my strength).

This whole post isn’t about me. It’s not about overcoming a hard time or my pride in myself for riding through the roller-coaster of change and being left relatively unscathed (although I do reflect on both regularly). I want whoever is reading this post and is dealing with hardship to know this: nobody knows what is going to happen in their lives. We have no idea what we will be doing a week or a month or 6 months from now.

I say to you, do not be afraid of change. Do not let others’ worries for you become your own. Take care of yourself, of your anxieties and your fears and do not close yourself off to change in whatever area of your life you are hoping for some kind of miracle.

6 months ago, I started a new chapter and I feel as though I am a different woman because of it on so many levels. Learning to roll with the punches that life throws at us can be tough, but once you can duck before you’re hit, things start to become a whole lot clearer and the challenge of life becomes so much more.

Try your best, take care of yourself, love yourself and never stop creating positivity within yourself.

6 months has gone and I’ll never look back.

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Have You Seen ‘The Wrong Girl’ Yet? | TV Talk

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I want to preface this blog by apologizing yet again for my absence over these past few weeks. Life was hectic and although I continued to feel inspired to write, I just didn’t have the time to write.  But I’m back and I’m here to hopefully convince you to tune into a brand new Aussie TV dramedy next Wednesday at 8:30pm. 

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‘The Breakfast Bar’ team. Sunrise or The Today Show have nothing on these guys.

The Wrong Girl premiered on TEN last night and it was one of my favourite first episides of a new series that I have seen in YEARS. Adapted from Zoe Foster Blake’s novel of the same name, The Wrong Girl is everything I have been needing in my life from a TV series – humor and heart.

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Zoe Foster Blake’s best selling novel has become a bright, fun new Aussie dramedy series.

 

 

To give you a short overview of the series (without giving anything away), The Wrong Girl follows morning TV show The Breakfast Bar producer Lily Woodward (played by the perfect Jessica Marais – this woman can do no wrong) as she navigates her way through life’s ups and downs.

With her for the ride are her best friends Pete and Simone, who are there to support Lily when her attempts at making advances in her career turn to dust and she tries to get on the good side of Jack Winters, a charismatic chef who has been offered a segment on The Breakfast Bar but quickly turned it down after a jokingly-rude email written by Simone is accidentally sent from Lily’s phone.
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Then there is the tension between Lily and BFF Pete, who may or may not want to take their friendship to a different level (there may be a kiss that helps them decide this), with disastrous results. Not to mention Lily’s parents who seem to have her best interests at heart, but can’t seem to get along with each other even for one dinner.

What I loved about the premiere episode was it introduced Lily as a character who was incredibly relatable. Lily is goofy yet incredibly driven to succeed. She loves her friends, yet won’t back down during a fight. I saw a lot of myself in the character of Lily, as I am sure many viewers did.

For a first episode (which we all know can sometimes fall by the wayside at times), the performances and plot have really impressed me and I know that I will definitely be tuning in next week for more.

You can catch last night’s episode of The Wrong Girl on the TenPlay app (trailer below).

Make sure you tune in for episode 2 next Wednesday at 8:30pm (after The Bachelorette) on TEN.

I’ll see you then!

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Spring Fashion Wishlist

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Fresh, sunny days filled with flowers filtering into cool nights…Spring has arrived and I am oh-so glad it is here!

With autumn being my first favourite season, the warm change to Spring is always welcome, especially since it’s been such a wet and miserable winter here in Australia this year.

One of my favourite things about Spring is the warmer, sunnier days, but the nights are still liveable. Aussie summer is unbareable at times and we don’t get much of a break during the nights as temperatures don’t really drop that far usually…gotta love it!

So, to celebrate the change of season, I did what any self-respecting, fashion-obsessed person would do – I went onto ASOS.com and CityChic.com.au and started up my spring wishlists with items that I just NEED to have this season as the weather warms up.

For me, spring is all about skirts. Beautifully breezy, feminine skirts which can be dressed up or down with your choice of top to match.

I’m, obsessed with midlength skirts lately, including these pretties:

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This midlength floral skirt is from CityChic.com.au

 

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Another floral midlength skirt from CityChic.com.au. I love the bright blues/greens in this one. So cheerful!

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You guessed it, this one’s from CityChic.com.au! This one is incredibly pretty and would look so pretty with a simple white singlet top and even a pink cardigan for cooler days.

 

Then there’s that denimn skirt everyone needs to own. The darker the material, the easier it can be to carry on to night-time if need be:

I love the buttons on this CityChic.com.au skirt! Pair it with a flowy blouse for a feminine look, or with a slogan t-shirt for a more casual look.

I love the buttons on this CityChic.com.au skirt! Pair it with a flowy blouse for a feminine look, or with a slogan t-shirt for a more casual look.

 

Of course, you can’t go past a nice pair of shorts on a sunny spring day to help you get around in comfort:

These cute shorts from ASOS.com are super stylish and can be dressed up or down. Sometimes all you need to do is add a pair of heels and you can jazz your shorts up a notch!

These cute shorts from ASOS.com are super stylish and can be dressed up or down. Sometimes all you need to do is add a pair of heels and you can jazz your shorts up a notch!

 

These denim shorts look super comfortable, and as you can see, they can be teamed with a flannel for a casual look.

These denim shorts from ASOS.com look super comfortable, and as you can see, they can be teamed with a flannel for a casual look.

 

Of course, what is a cute skirt or short without a cute top to match? These are a few that caught my eye…think comfy, bright and fun!

Very 90s, very casual and very trendy! Roll up the sleeves a bit and wear them with your favourite sneakers and sunnies for a lazy Sunday look. (here)

Very 90s, very casual and very trendy! Roll up the sleeves a bit and wear them with your favourite sneakers and sunnies for a lazy Sunday look. (here)

 

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This top is definitely ready to party! Let the sparkle be the feature and tuck it into a black skirt and add some sparkly earrings to match for a Saturday night with no effort! (here)

 

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This top would look so pretty paired with a denim skirt and sandals. Or, like you see in the pic, some denim shorts keep it casual but cute! (here)

 

For good measure, I thought I should add some cute pajamas to this wishlist because, if you’re like me, once the warmer weather hits, the pjs change!

I adore this silk peachy-pink set from ASOS. So classic and would surely keep you cool!

I adore this silk peachy-pink set from ASOS. So classic and would surely keep you cool!

 

Lilac is definitely one of my favourite spring colours, along with other pastels. This matching top/shorts are just adorable!

Lilac is definitely one of my favourite spring colours, along with other pastels. These matching top/shorts are just adorable!

 

Lastly is this cute blue icecream matching set. Brighter colours make me happy, and what better way to wake up happy then to wear something happy to bed? Exactly.

Lastly is this cute blue icecream matching set. Brighter colours make me happy, and what better way to wake up happy then to wear something happy to bed? Exactly.

 

What are your Spring Essentials? Or, if you’re living on the opposite side of the world right now, what items are in your Autumn/Fall wishlist?

Let me know in the comments below while I continue wishing I had the $$$ to buy all of these right now!

Happy Spring, everyone!

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